Let the music heal your soul-*

2009-11-19T00:10:00.001+08:00

xin tong.
tong you ru he.
tong, ying wei shang le ni de xin.
bu ying yong you ze yang de ai.
zhen de.
wo dui bu qi ni.
bu neng ge ni yao de ai.

2009-09-19T00:15:00.002+08:00

noone comes round. i noe it...
gona be my solitary for now..
feels like shit.
heart hurts...
really badly..
i din think i'll feel this way?
the tears jus roll on..
weird feeling..
emptiness.
lol
wtf.

2008-07-19T13:34:00.002+08:00

Ok. i guess i noe the truth now.
I noe it'll mean alot of things.
But i will choose to keep the friendship.
We are more buddies thn lovers i guess.
all this while. lol.
Its weird. like for now... the feeling its like..
cant describe it .haha.
oh well. time i hope heals all.
And if she is happier being with her other half now.
thn i will be happy for her. :)

2008-07-18T00:09:00.001+08:00

17th july... 136 since the day...
I'm.... crushed.
Can u tell me what to do?
can u tell me what u really feel?
i'm dying.

2008-07-15T22:50:00.002+08:00

15th July, 2008. Clear.134 days since the day...

Today school was okie.
I was feeling slightly better than other days.
It was Nanthini's bday. I hope she had a good day.
Aunt asked how come i do not walk the dog anymore.
And I bluntly just said that friend not in Singapore.
:x I am not the only one that notice.
before the trip already i did not go down and walk cola.
anyway...
Outing with the girls felt good.
Was looking at the handphone chain that christy bought.
It seems soo comforting to just look at. What it actually all means.
I dono why but as i was sitting there, i jus looked at it from time to time.
unspoken words work in mysterious ways. :*) THANK YOU CHRISTY.
I thank the Lord for her, and dawn.. and shirg.
It was nice talking to Shirg and bf too.
i got to noe them better.
Being with them helps me to forget for a while.
Being with them i can be myself again for a while.
lol. ya.
Time is not on our side. Just as we are getting to noe each other..
in a few weeks the sems will be over again. :C
Dawn does nt seem too happy.
I dono what happened. And i wont ask. but i pray fer her that everything will go well for her.
Dawn.. though i noe you wont see tis.. but.. 加油哦！

i do not noe when will mt be back...
but i cant wait to see her again. just soo that i noe she is safe and sound.
that she will come back and tell me all the nice and happy things she did.
i dono if she will talk to me like b4. i wish she would. i wish she would.
sleep tight mt. sweet dreams mt.
sleep tight dawn too.

2008-07-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

I noe nobody comes round this blog any longer... perhaps everyone thot this is dead.
guess this is the best place to write. :)

call me silly, but i decided to write my feelings.. like all my feelings.. for real. here.
from this very point of time. till when i do not know. but till whenever... starting frm this day.

_______
14th July, 2008. Clear.
133 days since the day...

its tues.. gona have sports business. its 11.40pm
just watched heart of greed ep 34, 35.
Watching how Alfred goes through all the trouble to write his thoughts.
Thinking back of all the wrong he has done in the past. And thinking why did he acted that way to zhai xin. Cant help but wandered back as well. Of all this time being together, how i treat mt.
Of how i try too hard being in control. Till i guess i left out of how mt might have really felt.
Of how i am soo similar to Alfred. Of dono how to actually love a person well.. and come to regret only when the person is no longer mine. All this time, when i have been alone all the while before meeting mt. When others liked me i never bother coz i neva felt anything back. Of how i always felt being used as a back up. i had closed friends, but till tis point. prolly only one, two true friend. Soo lost. I really neva imagine having some one like mt loving me. it seemed soo much like an unlikely love. lol.
mt used to ask me... "am i good looking?" and i would deny and say where got.. and deny. but in actual fact. just perfect to me. no matter how imperfect mt tinks of thyself. just perfect to me. :D
I used to tink whn we were still not together, hard and thoughtful, what is it that i like bout mt?
And mt even listed all the flaws of thyself.
- kiam pai
- smoker
- swear all the time etc...
all the things i never think of liking... but loving a person.. you really don care. just to think that the person you love loved you back jus as much. tt was all that mattered.
lol. ya. There was a msg tt said..."better treasure it if not wait till i become sick and tired of you..." now i noe how it feels.. to not treasure what i had.
It is through you that i really felt and noe what it means to be in love. even though i and you are not together... it does not matter. coz in my hrt. i am happy that it happened. of coz i wish there was more of us in the future. but for now. i do not want to think. just want to cherish every single memory. Even when we quarreled in the past.. lol. i noe how much i meant to you tt y. and vice versa. Though now I may seem like living in a standstill.. I am just glad for all the sweet memories you left me with.
Come to think of it.. it has been the best 1yrs + being together with mt. truely. even the not soo nice times. just being with her makes everything ok. :)
enought of dwelling for now. i do not noe what she is doing in thailand at the moment. i still have the feeling she has someone new.. but i have no right. since i was the one who forced her away frm me. i just hope she really enjoyed herself, enjoyed the company she has with her. yupz. ;)
sleep tight mt. sweet dreams mt.

2008-05-03T00:44:00.001+08:00

I've decided to revive this as my personal blog.

So if you happen to come across this. just your luck. lol.

Am ranting nonsense.. its ok. no one noes. (:

2006-04-02T20:13:00.000+08:00

Feeling so cold.
getting so heartless.
losing all emotions.
all feelings mean nothing now.
ignorant is bliss.

wtf.
Jus piss off.
Seriously.

2006-01-26T18:23:00.000+08:00

tuned in:Eric Carmen - All by myself

Alrite.. been asked to update.. perhaps i'll sum up wtever tt has happened since the new year. :D

1st Jan

Went to mum's friend, Aunty Juliet wedding anniversary dinner the nite before.. she's stays in Germany with her husband. And was nice to see her n uncle Wover(sp??)
pronouced.. Wu-ver. yra. nzway, kinda rmb whn i was much younger he gave me n my sis dolls. those with porcelain face. n he accidentally chipped it. He felt so bad.. he mended it on the spot. He is really such a sweet person! :D After the Dinner, went to catch movie wif Fel n Yuenmei. was nice ta see thm again. :D

8th Jan

Had the New years gathering at royal prince hotel's restaurant. Was alrite. took lotsa pictures. haha. will post up soon! :D

Hmz.. nothin much after tt..
Jus celebrated Jeev and soffi bday at Club momo. And some things happened thn.. shant say wt..
yea.. and did camps:
11-13th Jan Boon Lay Sec 1
18-20th Nanyang Pri 5
24-25th ZhangDe Pri 3!
Yea.. primary 3 alrite. Poor trainers had some tough time.. but they did well!
Appreciate all the help! :DD

next camp wont be till Feb 8th..
Cant wait till CNY!
haha. the food. yra. n ang bao. n.. haha. yra.
Oh joined the Surf n sweat Touch.. but i haven played in a longggg while.
heck. jus wana have fun! yra. haha.
wala wala Fri nite. might go.. duno yet. c 1st...

- my dirty little secret.

2006-01-10T17:30:00.000+08:00

Replies to taggies.

LENUS: Like omg la. so long ur tag. thn so long ago. haha. i not always free hor.
I free than watch laz. go subscribe?? no $$ la. I'm poor kiez. Dont drink la
once in a while okie. don habit can le. LOTR is NOT! haha. okie la. not tt
bad la. well.. Sec 4 alrdy. i'm sure you all will study hard 2gether. Have
a gd yr ahead! its like.. whao 1 yr since we met. haha. time zooms. god
speed. :DD

AMELIA: Haha ya. ur letter got lost mid waY? haha. lolx. Happy new yr LA.

SANDRA: Hey! haha. replied ur tag alrdy. also yr email.hah. oh wells. :P

2006-01-10T17:11:00.000+08:00

tuned in: All American Rejects - my dirty little secret

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Right. My blog was quite dead.
Not that it matters. nobody really comes round.
so its alrite i guess.
Its a New Year alrite. Any New Year Resolutions??
Didnt really planned any..
*stares outta of window.. stones.*

k honestly was stoning for few minutes thinkin` wt ta write really..
Since the new year..
So far 1 camp for the yr..
Tmw be goin for another..
each week 1 camp i guess.

Nothin interesting to blog bout really..
jus that last week's camp was terror..
sigh.. imagine 3 hr area cleaning after the kids left.
tts how bad. sheesh.
oh wells. tis weeks camp better be gd.
got two attachees and...
guess wt? I've got the GIFTED students..
whao. Bless me..
n DON laugh at my misfortune.
For all you noe, it may jus turn out gd.
Praying hard LA.
*damnit*

2006-01-02T19:28:00.000+08:00

www.iwebtunes.com/1/3632.WMA

Animation Medley. ((: listen ta it!

others...

2006-01-02T18:21:00.000+08:00

tuned in: 20 Minutes to park - Labor of love

They've got quite cool music.. i like!their guitar.. haha..sweet..

lyrics..

Labor of Love
by 20 Minutes to Park

Welcome home read the words on the front door step
Not the same since the last time we met with regret
Yea, I got uneasy feelin's runnin' down my spine
Got no one to turn to this time

Labor of love
Undreamed of, not at first sight
Sweetness and light
Labor of love
Clouding up, open up, unenclosed
A little undone
Labor of love

So you and I don't meet eye to eye sometimes
Everyone's got their ups and downs and inside outs
If we can mend these broken ties I'd be surprised
The word "same" doesn't hold its name in our little game

Labor of love
Undreamed of, not at first sight
Sweetness and light
Labor of love
Clouding up, open up, unenclosed
A little undone
Labor of love

And you tie it round
Feet off the ground
Suspended in space
Moments too late

Labor of love
Undreamed of, not at first sight
Sweetness and light
Labor of love
Clouding up, open up, unenclosed
A little undone
Labor of love

2006-01-02T16:16:00.000+08:00

Tuned in: The Summer Obsession - Burning bridges

mission accomplished
do you feel regret breathing down your neck?
broken friendships in progress
do you ever wonder why your soul is in debt?

light a match, but use it to find your way through the dark

when the sun goes down emotions all come out
and your sapphire eyes keep staring at the ground
your burning all your bridges down

the future is pending
are you sending angels out? or demons instead?
what goes around comes around
how will you cross the lakes and rivers that surround you?

light a match, but use it to find your way through the dark

when the sun goes down emotions all come out
and your saphire eyes keep staring at the ground
your burning all your bridges down

with every kiss, that's on your list
your burning all your bridges down

2005-12-25T13:54:00.000+08:00

tuned in:Bon Jovi - Have a nice day

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
Enjoy... ((:

2005-12-12T23:34:00.000+08:00

The Click Five - Just The Girl
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2005-12-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

Go check outta their songs here!! ((:
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendID=2232138&Mytoken=3226CBF0-EEDF-41C7-A02C2CC046BF5D143142015875

The Summer Obsession - Disappear

I'm trapped in a world that I can't take
Where everything's unrealistic and fake
I'm hiding out and planning my escape
I hope I'm not the only one
Please come and rescue me tonight

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose there's more to life out there?

There's no happiness surrounding me
Hate and ugliness is all I see
I wanna leave it all behind
I'm running out of time
Please come and rescue me tonight

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose there's more to life out there?

And I don't wanna be blind
I wanna open my mind
I wanna know if there's a purpose to this life
Will I ever find it? I'm running out of time...

Trapped in a world that I can't take
I'm hiding out and planning my escape
Please come and rescue me tonight

I just wish that I could disappear
Someone take me far away from here
Do you suppose there's more to life out there?

I just wish that I could disappear

2005-12-11T03:32:00.000+08:00

tuned in:Simple plan - untitled

- All MUMS are the same.. They all attended the SAME school. ((:
cheerios.

Finally! A DIGICAM..
Like ttly waited for 4535668745888 yrs to get it..
though its still the family camera.. still..
HAHA! HAPPY SHA LALA!! :DD
*grinz
photos lotsa of photos we are gona take tmw!! YEAH!! ((:

2005-12-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

Came across this in an ol' article:

The 3 lies Hollywood tells us are:
1) Movies and television are just harmless diversions. They only entertain people; they don't influence people.
2) The media just reflect reality; they don't shape reality; and
3) The entertainment industry just gives the public what it wants. If you don't like it, turn off the TV or skip the movie.

On my part, I would say that this is incorrect. However, I think it is highly unfair to judge that the fault lies solely on them. WE ALL KNOW, the media does influence us, the only difference to every individual is to what extent to which we are influenced by it. Its undeniable that many chase after materialistic possessions where there is constant publicity for the item. I too am a victim to such.. A very good example is the cell phone. Whenever a new and latest gadget arrives.. Many admire with much awe.. And regardless of the price, the high end users willingly part with their cash. It becomes so much of a status. Entertainment?! True. Yet often and not, especially the younger ones will learn and pick up whatever is portrayed in a show. Just looking at my brother, after watching a show he will learn how to speak and behave like them. Yes, you may say because he is a child. Adults too unconsciously imitate without their own knowledge. And they often never admit to it. Fact is the mass media redefines our idea of normality.

Reflect Reality? Utter bullshit. Is it not true that we watch a show or movie wishing that your own personal life reflects like how it is in the movies?? For myself, watching a show often is an avenue to dream about things that would not happen in real. Good example, Watching the latest Harry Potter. Its a fantasy world that mesmerize thousands and thousands of kids. And I would like to think that the things we see gives us hope rather than demolish the ideals that people would have.
There are though, many others that do bring out the cruelty of this world. And yes, in this case it does reflect reality to some extent. Yet again, we can't always believe everything we read and watch. Its up to us to decide on that.

In many shows these days, the F word jus seems to be a norm. In the past, it was never allowed. It becomes a word that its used for every possible reason when you are upset. I use it too, however, how some use it for no rhyme or reason makes it hard to apprehend. Like, its no offense to anyone in particular, but imagine some people who adds in to almost everything they do or say.

eg: It has been such a F-ing day. I've been out with all my girlfriends to the mall and all...OMFG.. Did u see tt F-ing dress? Its like so F-ing gorgeous..I so F-ing gotta get it.

okay. That was exaggerated. Still.. you get my point. It almost seems like that is the only four letter word they know.
Turn off the tv or don't watch the movie if u don't like? Like honestly. "You can run but you can't hide." That's the way with popular culture. YOU CANNOT AVOID IT. Example. Singer Madonna. She's been in the music industry for so many yrs.. I may intentionally listen to her music.. but i know who she is, what she looks like. I never choose to be aware of her. The media does that.
Even if its a Tv show. Example, the OC. Like if i dont watch it.. and half the class talks bout it all the time. Wont you be curious to watch it? Even if others say its full of crap? It will just get back to you.

I do think i am one of the few culprits. I used to be a TV freak. I can watch TV almost 24/7. Watching all types of show.. even reruns. How sad can i get? I wonder why sometimes. Is it because my parents does not restrict me? Or just coz they do it too.. Come to think of it.. i think i didnt have much of a life..okie. correction. Much of a SOCIAL life.

The big question. WHY? I think its just how i was in secondary school. Initially i was a nobody. I didnt had fixed friends.. I seem to hop from one group of friends to another. I never got an answer to that.. I was a drifter you may say. Not till i was in sec 2. When i got my exco post. Than i practically was in sch all the time. Even during holis. Whilst my friends ask me out, i'll have to reject them knowing i have datelines to meet. Gradually i just wasn't close to many of em. It becomes worst when i promoted. I spent litarally all my time with my exco. It was not anything bad. The times we spent together were great. But just that i missed out on many other things. Was not much of a friend.. Though my good friend was really sweet.. She would used to wait for me to finish my meetings and go home together.. ((: yeah. Think thats why i used to spend most of my time watching telly. Coz most of my friends wont bother asking me out. And i used to hang outta with the weirdest combination of friends. Imagine Ah beng & lians and the bookworms too. i dunno. it was jus funny thn. Just long stories laz.

Now.. everyone is just so busy with thier studies and thier own life.. We hardly meet. It comes to a point. When i want to go out.. I don't even know who i can call?? Sad, but true. The lonliness just creeps in quietly.. unknowingly accepting such a fate.

Do not know if i should be happy or sad sometimes. Learn from uncle. One must always be mindful of everything you do. And to concentrate and not do many things at a time. Otherwise you'll lose focus easily. maybe.

Christmas is round the corner. I want to feel the warm and fuzzy feeling of christmas once again. I really wish... ...

2005-12-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

tuned in: Full House OST - I think I

BYUL- i think i (full house ost)
Geureolri eobsdago anilkkeorago miteossjyo~ um
Naega geudae saranghandan imaldo andoejyo~ um
Gwaenchan jiltuilkkeorago naega oeroungabodago
Jashineul sokyeobwassjiman ije deoneun nan gamchulsuga eobsneungeolyo

I think I love you
Geureongabwayo
Cause I miss you
Geudaeman eobseumyeon

Nan amugeosdo moshago
Jakku saeng-gaknago
Ireongeol bomyeo amuraedo

I'm falling for you
Nan molrassjiman now I need you
Eoneusaenga nae mam gipeungose
Aju keuge jarijapeun geudaeui moseupeul ijen boayo

Urin aneoulrindago chingu geuge ttak johdago um
Hanabuteo yeolgae dodaeche mwo hangaerado majneunge eobsneunde
Eotteohgesagwil suissnyago maldoandwaeneun yaegirago
Malhamyeo dulreo daessjiman ijedeoneun nan geureogigashirheungeolyo

I think I love you
Geureongabwayo
Cause I miss you
Geudaeman eobseumyeon

Nan amugeosdo moshago
Jakkusaeng-gaknago
Ireongeol bomyeon amuraedo

I'm falling for you
Nan molrassjiman now I need you
Eoneusaenga nae mam gipeungose
Aju keuge jarijapeun geudaeui moseupeul ijen boayo
Wae molrassjyo geudaeraneungeol woo
Wae mosbwassjyo baro apinde hoo ye
Geu dongan ireohge baro naegyeote isseossneunde
Wae ijeseoya sarangi boineungeoji hoo

I think I love you
Geureongabwayo
Cause I miss you
Geudaeman eobseumyeon
Nan amugeosdo moshago
Jakkusaeng-gaknaoIreongeol
bomyeon amuraedo

I'm falling for you
Nan molrassjiman now I need you
Eoneusaenga nae mam gipeungose
Aju keuge jarijapeun geudaeui moseupeul ijen boayo

-gotten frm eunice..
full house damnz nice la. :DD

2005-12-04T23:55:00.000+08:00

Well.. jus to explain to ya all wt all this performance is bout:

I belong to a grp in church called The Sowers in Novena.
So like every end of year we come up with a mini item,
that basically consist of the nativity ( Story of Jesus),
Usually with a few dances to go with it.. and not forgetting
ending off with Santa or Frosty the snowman or sumtimes both..
We would perform at several Old folk's home for two sundays.
Hoping to bring the joyous christmas spirit to thm.. as much as possible..
So yupz.
Today was the first day.. n all was well.. ((:
went to four homes.. next wk another 4..
Outings was always fun..
The memories.
Thn whn we were younger..
The very 1st performance tt i did was the sound of music.. and the santarina part..
we were all kids thn.. in between performances we would play around..
like marco polo.. i rmbed. (:
And the scrambling round looking for costume.. changing in a hurry..
with like a dozen hands helpin u frm make-up to the wings.. to the shoes..(:
The fun times..
even the rehearsals.. we would practice n practice.. thn go out play catchin at the back
of the church..
The bus rides.. the companions.. the nervousness we used to go thru..
Always been grt.. (:
Thn always after 2nd day's outing we wld get back to church.. n think of an item
on the spot for bout an hour or so.. for Bro Bernard's birthday celebtn performance.
(He is the Brother in charge of the Sowers since my mum's time; oh did i mentioned? its been least 3 generation affair. (: , but all diff families.. coming 2gether n Bro B. is like a
Grandfather to us. ((:)
We would like always be able to come up with a dance routine.. tt nv fails to put a wide
smile across his face..
we are his grand children he always says.. :)
After so many yrs..
He is retiring.. but still he came back n joined us again for chirstmas.
no denial tt he's aging.. he seems to call me Val at times! lolx.
Still its jus nice noeing he's back again..

oh.. ya.. n we used to perform for Christmas eve mass..
still rmb tt yr.. the 1st time we performed in church..
1st time being an angel.. like.. was onli pri 4 or 5..
the moment on the alter.. the flashlights were even more bright thn lightnings..
lolx. But it always came outta well.. ((:
Many cast.. crew.. dancers. came n go.. but the regular few
were still me, val n ervin.. yupx..

THis year it does not seems as big as it used to be..
think we slacked quite abit. but stil..
we are able to come up wif the dance..
and do it well.. and we are still havin fun!
esp wif my crappin partners..
Val, Cherie & Ervin..
Tim too la.
n the rest of em..
like the 5 sisters.. n gen.. brendan
n tim's frenz. all's cool.. n the crazie pix we took.
hilarious! ((:
I LIKE! ((: shall post some.. the rest jus check on the link
tt i'll add later.. yupz..

This is such a long post.. doubt any1 will read till here la.
all the same. shall ends here.
this week is cleanin week man.. as well as getting ready xmas cards to be sent..
i hope i have the time to do :P

IN the mood alrdy.. so shall...

-wish ya all Have a Happy christmas la. noe its really early. START PLANNING TO SPEND TIME WITH FRENZ N FAMILY. THis is a gd time to slow down n appreciate e ppl round u . ((:
tts wt i'm tryin to do.. :D

cheerios! :DD

2005-12-04T17:57:00.000+08:00

tuned in:dragostea din tei

Haha.
This song damn cute plz!
Its the chicken little song!
haha. SWT. (:
Me, Val & cherie was trying to sing to it! haha.
TOday's outing was lotsa fun~!

I was getting all crappy..
TODAY is HIGH DAY~!
muahaha..
yupz..
frm home to home.. kept playing la..
thn was playing yellowcard songs in the bus!
thn singing to it! haha..
ohz.. n like we took quite a few pix plz~!
haha.
cant wait to get frm Val.
KEKE.
Cant wait till next week!
haha.
ohz.. i wana see the video again too~!
lolx.
i wonder is there any1 wif video cam..
tt can borrow. wana take us dancin n keep lorz.
haha.
oh n this yr's bro B burfday celebration is dinner the following week..
thn.. means no performance this yr??
hmz.. i duno..
think its possible to come up wif something??
hmz.. i wonder..
:p shall ends now.. eating KFC FOR DINNER!
DAMNZ sinful la.
but like wt the heck. :P
((: ends..
shall put the song on my jukebox. go listen. QUICK~~~!!! :DD
n ppl tag my blog if u come round k! ((:
cheerios~!

-oh HAPPY DAY`! High too la.. *smilez

2005-12-03T15:58:00.000+08:00

Nothin to blog bout.. so jus put this few pix.
((:

Me, Ismail, Hazzie and the MC gang!!
You gurls rox!! ((:

BABALOES`!!! :DD

2005-12-03T00:24:00.000+08:00

Simple Plan - Crazy
Watch Music Videos at Blastro.com

2005-12-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

Rufus Wainwright - Across The Universe
Video Codes at Blastro.com

2005-12-02T01:39:00.000+08:00

Waking Ashland - I am for you

Something's very wrong here
Your heart has frozen over
and something's very strange here
You've lost all desire
The comfort we create to prove
We're something
But we're starving
Screaming in the night cause you want answers
From the one
And there is hope again

Don't give up, your not thinking
Don't give up, just keep seeking
And I, I am for you
And I, I will love you
And I, I am for you
And I, I will save you

Come and take my face or forever I
Will walk alone
And all the same mistakes
Cause I know you, I deny you
Days go by and choices still remain forever
Right and wrong is black and white
The illusions of this world
And there is hope again

I send myself to you
Yes always and always
I send my love to you

You found today, found today,
You found today, saw today

2005-12-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

tuned in: Wake me up when sept ends (:

hmz.

i wana blog. but not in the mood.

lazy really. jus plain ol lazy LARz.

well.

maybe shall jus insert short snippets of wts goin on recently..

Had full dress rehearsal on sunday..

Its full dress.. but.. i duno.

its not the same.. not like in the past..

at least..

every1 was always very anxious.. n had to be all in make-up..

etc.. its jus.. different.. oh wells..

Mon till Wed.

camp at RM.

Parkview pri.

LIKE.. my grp was oh-so-not-fun @ all.

combination of soccer boys, floorball n hockey boys.. n 3 brownie gurls.

(weird combination if u ask me.. suppose to be a sports camp..

y the 3 brownie gurls?? think to add the numbers.. but the 3 gurls were really swt. ((: )

I ttly had this hyperactive guy.. thn the 5 chinatown bois (named by buddy Andi)

Like.. they are TTLY IN THEIR OWN WORLD 1/2 the time larz!

BLOODY IRRITATING CANZ! really felt like strangling them..

sheesh. but i had my fun still at camp..

y? i played volleyball! haha

like whn the kids had coach time.. me n some trainers played..

its been such a long time since i last played! haha.

yupz. n some of the other gurls were really swt laz.

n theres this 1 gurl tt kept sayin i was cute?! *shudders.*

everytimes she walks past she'll say tt...

but uncool thing was we had ta do Nite mission on the 2nd nite..

Like basically.. sentry duty la..

although its onli 1/2 hour for each buddy..

but like for the first wave trainers they were really tired?! can tell laz..

Still.. didnt wake buddy up whn was our duty..

cyin tt he was sound asleep i'll be fine on my own laz.

OH.

i forgot. why we had to do sentry??

its coz apparently we have kids tt sleepwalk.

ya. tts y.

theres this kid tt woke up n started talkin in tamil.. scared some trainers there.

n during my duty.. he woke up too..

was tellin him ta go back to sleep.. thn he asked lie down?

n i was like ya.. still early go back to sleep..

Thn noe wt?

He lied onto his fren's stomach n slept.

His friend was scratchin his stomach.. think his hair itched.. haha

Wanted to shifted the boy.. but think better not.

Yea camp was both fun.. n not. lolx.

Met up wif lydia today..

thn went Sakae.

homed.

tmw mus see how 1st..

hmz..

Angel Dearie:

no problem! ya.. been busy too.. last camp wasnt the most fun.. still.. i survived la! ((: Missin u MANY~~! cya real soon okie!!

oh it turns out to be a pretty long post.. sigh.

-outing starts this sunday. sigh.

2005-11-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

tuned in: Nas - I Can

I know I can (I know I can)

Be what I wanna be (be what I wanna be)

If I work hard at it (If I work hard it)

I'll be where I wanna be (I'll be where I wanna be)

Be, B-Boys and girls, listen up

You can be anything in the world, in God we trust

An architect, doctor, maybe an actress

But nothing comes easy it takes much practice

Like, I met a woman who's becoming a star

She was very beautiful, leaving people in awe

Singing songs, Lena Horne, but the younger version

Hung with the wrong person

Got her strung off the heroin

Cocaine, sniffin up drugs, all in her nose

Coulda died, so young, no looks ugly and old

No fun cause when she reaches for hugs people hold they breath

Cause she smells of corrosion and death

Watch the company you keep and the crowd you bring

Cause they came to do drugs and you came to sing

So if you gonna be the best, I'ma tell you how

Put your hands in the air, and take the vow

I know I can (I know I can)

Be what I wanna be (be what I wanna be)

If I work hard at it (If I work hard it)

I'll be where I wanna be (I'll be where I wanna be)

Be, b-boys and girls, listen again

This is for grown looking girls who's only ten

who watch videos and do what they see

As cute as can be, up in the club with fake ID

Careful, 'fore you meet a man with HIV

You can host the TV like Oprah Winfrey

Whatever you decide, be careful, some men be

Rapists, so act your age, don't pretend to be

Older than you are, give yourself time to grow

You thinking he can give you wealth, but so

Young boys, you can use a lot of help, you know

You thinkin life's all about smokin weed and ice

You don't wanna be my age and can't read and right

Begging different women for a place to sleep at night

Smart boys turn to men and do whatever they wish

If you believe you can achieve, then say it like this

I know I can (I know I can)

Be what I wanna be (be what I wanna be)

If I work hard at it (If I work hard it)

I'll be where I wanna be (I'll be where I wanna be)

Save the music y'all,

save the music y'all

Save the music y'all,

save the music y'all

Save the music

Be, be, 'fore we came to this country

We were kings and queens, never porch monkeys

There was empires in Africa called Kush

Timbuktu, where every race came to get books

To learn from black teachers who taught Greeks and Romans

Asian Arabs and gave them gold when

Gold was converted to money it all changed

Money then became empowerment for Europeans

The Persian military invaded

They heard about the gold, the teachings and everything sacred

Africa was almost robbed naked

Slavery was money, so they began making slave ships

Egypt was the place that Alexander the Great went

He was so shocked at the mountains with black faces

Shot up they nose to impose what basically

Still goes on today, you see?

If the truth is told, the youth can grow

They learn to survive until they gain control

Nobody says you have to be gangstas, hoes

Read more learn more, change the globe

Ghetto children, do your thing

Hold your head up, little man, you're a king

Young Princess when you get your wedding ring

Your man is saying "She's my Queen"

I know I can (I know I can)

Be what I wanna be (be what I wanna be)

If I work hard at it (If I work hard it)

I'll be where I wanna be (I'll be where I wanna be)

2005-11-26T14:58:00.000+08:00

tuned in: pop princess - the click five

Fri

Caught up wif lydia..

was jus nice chatting up wif her again.. ((:

n all the ideas we have for the christmas partee!

Can't HARDLY WAIT~! ((:

haha.

hmz.. thn had practice again ystd..

Sun FULL DRESS.. oh gosh..

hope i can rmb steps man..

Today

Gona go outta again later..

thn briefing..

be off at camp mon till wed..

-tell me u'll miss me?

2005-11-24T23:25:00.000+08:00

tuned in: pop princess - The click five

Screw up blog..

changed the template for now..

shall mess around wif it again soon.. hopefully..

2005-11-22T19:51:00.000+08:00

tuned in: Pon Da Replay - Rihanda

Mark my words.
Jus one fine day.. I'll never be forgiven for such a sin..
One fine day.. i definitely strangle him..
get him outta my sight.
Such a brat.
Shit.

Watched Harry Potter ystd..
it was.. okie.. some of the scenes were quite gd..
others... bit unrealistic..
some parts.. i'm quite sure ppl who never read the book will be lost..
thn again.. who would go watch without reading the bk?
ppl like tt would not even noe who is who..
I need to go shopping.. jus get outta.. n chill..
losing is alrdy.. jus like tt ass screamin at gen..
OMG lar. I may really jus flung stuff at him..
one F-ing day.

Jus came back on camp ystd..
the camp.. was chaotic..
dun ask y.. jus so..
oh did i mention i got a attachee??
lolx.. quite amusing..
but he was quite a nice person..
very helpful attachee. yupz.
shall end.. n gosh. i need to recap my steps..
theres practice tmw.. n fri.. n sun..
x_O gosh..

2005-11-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

tuned in: kelly clarkson - behind these hazel eyes

I'll be off to another camp later..
so shall update bout the last camp..
before this becomes a dead blog. :P
4 day 3 nite...
STC Leadership camp @ edventure village ((:

BABALOES.... [Banana + Buffaloes = BABALOES]
LMAO..
What can i say.. .. nothin much to say really...
kiez.. I WAS JUS KIDDIN LA! lolx..

All you gurls were really quiet initially.. cept for some..
namely.. GINNY.. nonsensical 1.. tt has the most vivid imagination and
craps the most.. ahaha.. but as the days goes by...
you all opened up eventually... and can see tt u all actually grow
and learn through the experiences.. how u all actually helped each
other.. frm the in camp activities.. to the hike.. and how u all bond
and gotten to noe each other so much more.. esp the fun times at
the monkey bar.. the tires.. the waterfall..
and of coz.. campfire.. you all were super HIGH n enthu LA!..
And the item u all came up wif was really cute.. lolx.
It really was my pleasure to have all of u in the grp alrite..
every single 1 of you.. ((: *grinz.

*~BABALOES~*
xoxo Alicia xoxo Charlotte xoxo Clarie xoxo Fiona xoxo
xoxo Ginny xoxo Jeslyn xoxo Leanne xoxo Lorraine xoxo
xoxo Nadya xoxo Oliver xoxo Sandra xoxo
xoxo ShiHui xoxo Tracy xoxo

2005-11-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

tuned in: dragostea din tei

This week was quite alrite..
Did 7th to 9th leadership camp for Clementi Town sec..
I AM SO PROUD OF MY GRP~! UNIQUE.6. aka UNIX!
They have been really gd.. most enthu grp..
Like... they really have lotsa initiative.. n like all of them can work together..
even the quieter 1s?! haha.. esp.. during the hike.. haha..
like when on the way to macritchie they were really focused.. n bend on winning..
so serious.. all of em... only when coming back they were cheering and singing all the way~!
haha. song session too... campfire.. they cheered for all the other grps??? haha..
n their item was really cute.. lolx..

'I dont wanna be a duck,
i don't wanna be a chicken..
i only wanna shake my butt.. '

Was it like tt?! i dun quite rmb..
haha.. n like until area cleaning time they were still cheering.. n singin..
lolz.. buddy grp was quite gd too.. really..
haha..
oh n the sch cheer they came up wif..

"boom, boom, boom, boom
we are leaders frm CTSS.
boom, boom, boom, boom
come together to make more friends.
boom, boom, boom, boom
when we look into the leader's face.
boom, boom, boom, boom
it reminds me of a champion.
Hey hey, champion!
We love leaders
and leaders love us. " ((:

-neat! ((:
Unique6 Jus ROX! ((:

. Aiman . Ainual . Aisyah . Badruddin . Ee Lin . Fiona . Guo Wei . Hui Deng . Jasmine . Jason . . Mervyn . Pei Sin . Wai Ho . Ye Lay . Yong Xin .

next week camp: STC leadership camp
yupz.. cheerios now..

2005-11-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

my hp got stolen.
lost all contacts.
so all u peepz out there kindly sms, email me ur nos again alrite.
sorrie for all the trouble.

Frigginz piece of **** tt stole my phone.
If its a poor man needin to feed his family.
Shall forgive.
Otw. Cursed whoever who stole my phone!
:(((((

wtever.
i'm done.

2005-10-27T20:47:00.000+08:00

tuned in: starsailor - In the crossfire

It has been quite a week..
of coz in comparison to the last two weeks.
I'm not workin only tmw.

Mon: 1 day camp for CCKSS Sec 1 kids.
alrite but difficult to get thier attention.. :P thn had 1st aid lesson. funny as usual.

Tues & Wed: 2 day sec 3 CCKSS
My grp was okie.. quite mature though they are frm normal.
thing was after 5pm my whole grp only consisted of 2 person, buddy's ; 3 person.
As most of the malay students went hm. 6 student in my clz. plus student leader.
was so easy to handle. lolx.

Thurs: Dragonboat-ing session for Hai Sing catholic sch. sec 2s.
Had fun! i got this bunch of gurls. quite hyper.. lolx. really nice kids. haha.
went to get another two more posters.
Oliver Twist - looks almost similar to The Pianist. coz its the same director. lolz.
Friday Nite lights - I jus think its such an inspiring show.. had to get tt..
Love all of em`! ((:

Tmw: Got things to do at home morng till afternoon.. thn its exam! :P i really hope
i pass la! :P dun wana take it again.

shall cont watchin movies now. ciao! ((:

2005-10-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

tuned in: Vitamin C - friends forever

(apparently tis song is playin on a few blogs.. )

hey to U all outta there...

jus rmb... all of you are feelin the same now...

so let the tears fall on...jus keep in mind its happy tears u r shedding...

knwing tt as u countdwn e days to c her once more,

joy WILL be twice even more enfold... ((:

To Syeila (if u'll c this :P),

hope you like the small gift i made..

n jus ta let u noe the 'locker' can be open ya.. ((:

tkaire of urself there ... (:

Skies are dark it's time for rain

Final call you board the ~~train~~plane

Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays

Wipe the tears you hide your face

Blinded by the sorrow.

Its time now to sing out

though the story never ends

lets celebrate remember a year

in the life of friends.

2005-10-19T02:52:00.000+08:00

tuned in : Celine Dion - Let this be our prayer

Fruitful day i would say!

Went to angel dearie's house ta transfer MOST ... really alot..

of my pic & videos outta frm my hp.. haha..

n gotten new songs in! although the quality not as gd..

but its gd enuf! yupzz..

Tmw... gonna be a babysitter in the afternoon..

haha.. yea.. my cousin..

thn it'll be down for course at chinatown.

sigh.. least i arent goin for kayakin got

too many things at hand..

n my mum... ahz.. moodswingin..

k maybe its my fault first but like she jus go on....

n on... n always bringin up ol' matters..

bloody sickening..

sheesh..

ohz oh.. n i think the show 'Hostage' is quite nice..

though the vulgarities are aplenty.. :P

still nice.. haha.

haven watched the other two.. shall do so laterz. ((:

Angel` Dearie :

Heyz~! THANK YEW A MILLION FOR TODAY ANGEL~!

Appreciate it lotsa ya?! ohz n thanx for lendin me the dvds.. as mentioned above..

really nice la! haha. yupz. ehx..

YESH~! omg. our date to the beach.. tt haven come as yet..

my fault really.. been busy.. n lazy also.. keke :P

hmz.. have to confirm the date againz k?! coz Nov is gona be..

busy busy busy.. yupz.. so wana date me mus book way in advace ah~!

lolx. kiddins. but definitely way b4 hand la. keke.

Cant wait to meet up again! Miss you so much alrdy~! ((:

Oh n Monday's cycling almost round Bukit Timah.. haha.. I had fun actually..

though sorrie.. you almost had an accident!!

not sure of tt place la.. n so many traffic.. :P

nzhow.. i really had fun~! ((: cya soon..

hugz n kissesz.

- ohz.. n.. i'm... bout 100+ songs richer..

muhahahah. ((: *grinz.

2005-10-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

tuned in: Simple plan - Everytime

today:

on a gd side.. mum's getting chirpy n nice..
i hope it keeps this way..
whilst gen.. she cracks up too easily..
in a bad way i mean.. gosh..
i dunno..
n... I MISS YOU TOO ANGEL DEARIE~! haha
sorrie ah.. so long nvr contact u babe..
haha. yupz. meetin tomorrow~! whee~! ((:
sadly. got course tmw. nite somemore. sigh.
lucky though. syeila's not flying tmw! ha..
gd ta hear. probs 20+ ame says. yuppiez.

watched harry potter and the sorcerer's stone AGAIN! ahaha..
but it felt really gd.. coz mum watched wif us.. u shld have seen how excited at those crucial parts.
really.. n she says she does not watch fantasy.. right...
well was really nice watchin it as a family.. cept for dad..
was at work. still. i had fun. ((:

Believe it a not.. have not finished reading Half blood prince. yupz.
after all these while.
say i'm slow. wtever.
gona finish it soon..
i hope. :P
still got quite a few books i wana read! :P haha. yupz.

oh yesh.. supposing to work elsewhere..
but now i hope i do find another job besides
inno. oh wells...
meanwhile.. jus slacking roundz. ((:
be sending letters tomorrow.
hand delivered, haha. yupz. hope i could la.
((:
-n did i mentioned meeting angel dearie for lunch?
oh. i think i did. :P haha.
back to my fantasy world now.. ((:

2005-10-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMIE DEAREST~! ((:

Though at times ( okie.. lotsa times! ) i make you mad...
and i am really stubborn as well...
and the naggin's seem to go on forever...
I jus wana thank you...
for bringin me to this world...
for letting me see the wonderous creation of God..
although often it is masked behind the cruelty and unhappiness of life..
yet i'm content...
for everything that you have given me...
so much more fortunate than many...
Thank you for a happy family..
although quarrels happen..
still we remain as one..
Thank you for letting me be God's precious child..
And i thank God for you...

God made me your child..
And i'm totally fortunate for that..
My childhood has been filled with many fond memories..
And i thank thee for that..
As i said.. i'm finding myself again..
So i pray and hope that i gain your forgiveness
for all the sins and wrong i've done towards you mummie..

Pray you be blessed on this special day...

<3>-hugs.
((:

2005-10-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

"Being Perfect... is not about the scoreboard out there,
it's not about winning,
It's about you; your relationship with yourself
& your family & your friends.
Being Perfect... is about being able to
look into your friend in the eye,
and noe that you didn't let them down,
because you told them the truth.
And that truth is you did everything that you could.
There was not one more thing that
you could have done.
CAN YOU LIVE IN THAT MOMENT??
As best as you can with clear eyes,
and <3 in your heart..
with joy in your heart.
IF you can do that gentlemen...
than you are perfect.

- Friday Night Lights.

2005-10-02T01:55:00.000+08:00

Went outta wif Stacy ystd... supposing to catch corpse bride with her, ended jus went shoppin'.
And guess what? I actually bought a portable DVD player! believe it anot~! when i'm actually savin' up ta get a digicam as well as mp3 player. sigh. jus too gd a deal. although its..hmz. duno wt brand. still think its relatively cheap. And the resolutions are quite gd too.. so guess its a gd buy! ((: nw i can watch my K dramas withot the com! yupz! haha.

Today, out wif Mum, Gen & Brendan to Ikea. Met Jia Rui also. Ate at the Ikea cafe. Like thier meatballs are really still the best laz~! Swedish meatballs.. uh huh.. awesome laz. haha. Then shopped round abit. Didnt get anything really. Was lookin for a Bday gift at Anchorpt after tt. Ends, went Queensway to get the Abercrombie & Fitch Shirt for Faith.. (lucky she loves it~! ((: ) I got two tops too.. haha. spend $$ again! :P

Went to her place to celebrate her 21st Bday. haha. Had fun there.. best part was made new frenz.. n 1 of whom stays also at Bukit Batok... n we have SOO many things in common.. n i mean ALOT~! haha. cool ritez?! haha..
yea man..

Tmw... mass in the morning thn to Novena church for dance.. yuppiez. no steps in mind really. so.. haha.. blank.. keke. kiez.. wana go watch vcd alrdy...

-happy moments fade away...memories last forever...-

2005-09-28T00:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY EILYNN! ((:

Lotsa <33, hugs & kisses,

Gmaine Jie

2005-09-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

Everytime i see your face

Everytime you look my way

It's like it all falls into place

Everything feels alright

Ever since you walked away

My life's been disarray

All i want is one more day,

All i need is one more day with

- you.

nothin much goin on this week...

had a gd time jus now wif angel dearie. (: lolx.

tmw n thurs kayakin course.

friday outta wif stacy for movie..

n...yupz.. not forgettin the date wif chen shan n gang on sat~! cant wait! ((:

2005-09-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

Changed skin. like finally...